Adopted

My anger and hurt at my ex in laws and ex husband was eating me up inside. I felt disgraced, and had to push back. My ego was threatened- the same way I was never allowed my feelings in childhood. I was fighting for survival, because I felt threatened. They don’t understand me and then I feel like I’m nothing if people don’t understand me. It’s triggering. They called me worthless and and bad, something I was toxically shamed to feel all my life. I’m trying to stop letting myself feel this way. To not let others get me down, over my will again and again. Maybe it’s because it was never developed at all... John Bradshaw says in Healing the Shame That Binds You that the interpersonal bridge “Trust is fostered by the fact that we can come to expect and rely on the mortality of response” between parent and child... “emotional bond is formed” which “allows the child to risk venturing out to explore the world. ... we allow ourselves to be vulnerable in that we allow ourselves to need the