Narcissists Are The Worst- See how You Mirror Yourself Through Them
I was thinking, after watching a YouTube video about a narcissist mother when her daughter visited her in the nursing home and she feigned interest in her daughter and acted self absorbed, that the extreme of people can help a person get to know where they stand in life, and where they DON'T want to be.
Narcissists are so rude and disregarding of others that I am so glad I am not one. And I hope I never become one, or act like one. It is terrifying to think of people seeing me as one, because it is so awful to mistreat others the way they do. How they make their own family member feel like garbage, and unloved. It hurts to think of all the unloved children out there with parents like that. What I got from watching the video was that I have to work on showing love to my family members, because it is disgusting the way the narc mother treated her daughter whom she hadn't seen in 8 (!!) years! As if the time hadn't past, and nothing was out of the ordinary. She said she prayed that they visit her, and "told" God to forgive her sins. It's funny how she thought she was forgiven just by telling God to forgive her, but then again these narcissists think they are on such a high level that they don't need to beg for forgiveness and it is granted to them. That is what happens when a person feels unseen and unloved in childhood, and has to continue trying to do everything to get their needs met like they are still a baby - until they are in their OLD AGE! It is truly sad how these people are soo blind to their emotional disorder. What is making them behave infantile. It also struck me how, when the daughter told her mother, "Do you know why I didn't visit you for so long? It was because of how you put a restraining order on me and I became homeless because of you..." And the old woman started sweating and whispered, "Not here, there are security people here..." As if to shush her because she didn't want others hearing. This shows how they are scared of people hearing and always cover up their stories because of paranoia of how others see them. My father is similar in that he made up stories of his life to glorify himself, in front of US! He once told someone that he had a job that he never had, and my mother's reaction was always just to laugh but tell us to not say anything, let him say what he wants. It became normal, and the whole family got to know my father and his lying tirades and got sick of hearing them, just cutting him off and ignoring him to his face. He got to the point of not realizing, and slowly his dementia got worse. He told me many times that my mother was using him and stealing money from him, and I even used to feel bad for him when he complained that she never made him meals, which was not true. She was just tired of doing everything, including paying the rent and running three houses.
Anyway, narcissists act so fake even to family members, and this is a phenomena that I lived with in my family. I thought that asking family how they were doing was fake, and all the I love you's seemed fake to me, aside from the ones to my immediate family sometimes. That is why I was so susceptible to people using me, because I was wary of anyone who claimed they loved me, and I was impressed by narcissists because their charm made me think they really meant it. Really, they were just being nice to use me, as a punching bag. As Magnetic Mama says, narcissists know how to pick up on people who have low self-esteem and can manipulate our emotions.
Narcissists are so rude and disregarding of others that I am so glad I am not one. And I hope I never become one, or act like one. It is terrifying to think of people seeing me as one, because it is so awful to mistreat others the way they do. How they make their own family member feel like garbage, and unloved. It hurts to think of all the unloved children out there with parents like that. What I got from watching the video was that I have to work on showing love to my family members, because it is disgusting the way the narc mother treated her daughter whom she hadn't seen in 8 (!!) years! As if the time hadn't past, and nothing was out of the ordinary. She said she prayed that they visit her, and "told" God to forgive her sins. It's funny how she thought she was forgiven just by telling God to forgive her, but then again these narcissists think they are on such a high level that they don't need to beg for forgiveness and it is granted to them. That is what happens when a person feels unseen and unloved in childhood, and has to continue trying to do everything to get their needs met like they are still a baby - until they are in their OLD AGE! It is truly sad how these people are soo blind to their emotional disorder. What is making them behave infantile. It also struck me how, when the daughter told her mother, "Do you know why I didn't visit you for so long? It was because of how you put a restraining order on me and I became homeless because of you..." And the old woman started sweating and whispered, "Not here, there are security people here..." As if to shush her because she didn't want others hearing. This shows how they are scared of people hearing and always cover up their stories because of paranoia of how others see them. My father is similar in that he made up stories of his life to glorify himself, in front of US! He once told someone that he had a job that he never had, and my mother's reaction was always just to laugh but tell us to not say anything, let him say what he wants. It became normal, and the whole family got to know my father and his lying tirades and got sick of hearing them, just cutting him off and ignoring him to his face. He got to the point of not realizing, and slowly his dementia got worse. He told me many times that my mother was using him and stealing money from him, and I even used to feel bad for him when he complained that she never made him meals, which was not true. She was just tired of doing everything, including paying the rent and running three houses.
Anyway, narcissists act so fake even to family members, and this is a phenomena that I lived with in my family. I thought that asking family how they were doing was fake, and all the I love you's seemed fake to me, aside from the ones to my immediate family sometimes. That is why I was so susceptible to people using me, because I was wary of anyone who claimed they loved me, and I was impressed by narcissists because their charm made me think they really meant it. Really, they were just being nice to use me, as a punching bag. As Magnetic Mama says, narcissists know how to pick up on people who have low self-esteem and can manipulate our emotions.
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