Sacrifice Is Subjective and Relative To the Person
Making sacrifices in our life makes us appreciate life much more. I see this in my life, when I am focused on doing good and not only enjoying pleasures of life without meaning, I am much happier. Life has more meaning, and I feel more alive.
Sacrifices for me means doing things that are hard for me, and against my instinct. For example, my instincts would be to just wake up and prepare food and eat it, without focusing on being grateful for my life and the things I am blessed with, cleaning my mess, and preparing a mind set of what I will feel in my day and then accomplish. I need that motivation of thinking positive thoughts in order to fulfill goodness in my day. Many times my instincts, which come from old programming and beliefs, are negative, lazy, and childish. I work on changing every day. It is not easy. This is why I get so much satisfaction when I am changing my thought patterns, turning them towards good, because it is hard work for me and I have a sense of accomplishment after. When I had an up and down day of fighting with myself with depression and losing control of my temper under stress, and practicing self-loving thoughts and actions when it is against my grain. Slowly, I begin to see what is right for me to be doing, with more self-love which leads to self-knowledge. I can know what is coming from my negative thoughts, and not act from it.
The more I love myself, the more joy I have and the more I want to please myself. That means listening to my heart and caring for my needs. When I do that, I can care so much more about others. Because I am filled up and not looking to be fulfilled by outside things.
So I learn to let go of my needs for perfection, and be realistic about what I can do and what is too hard for me. When I take the little steps, I am proud of myself and feel uplifted in life. I have more self confidence and what other's think doesn't get to me as much.
Love,
Adoptee Struggling
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