Family Magnetic Energy Field

          I have just been to the adoptee group meeting and it was overwhelming. Learned things. Apparently there is a magnetic energy field around each family system, and it gets affected by any tragedy or severing. When the adoptee comes back to the family, the system gets out of wack a bit. I knew this and feel it every day. The pain around my family. They said the lies where the worst thing because no body talks about it and it becomes bad energy that they all feel. Some are so blind to it because they live so bitterly anyhow. I see that with my birth family how they are so cynical and bitter about the family they come from. How one was weird and other too religious to them. And it was a massive secret that only the parents and grandparents knew when they gave up my mother for adoption because her mother was too messed up in the head to live properly. It pains me greatly to know about this. I am worried about reuniting, and my great responsibility. Because as one guy said there, as the adoptees who reach out, we start that energy flow and it never goes the opposite way. We keep reaching out. I am saddened and sickened by it. I feel it is unfair. But I wonder how hurt I will get or if they will come around.