The More You Know...

         You will not find happiness and joy in anything unless you are willing to immerse yourself in it fully. I am finding less things satisfying, as I know there is so much more out there to reach and obtain. I also fall into depression from these thoughts too, feeling like I'll never get what I want.

       It's not easy knowing so much because you see how much more there is to know and you feel constant needing to know more, or you feel unfulfilled. But the more you know, the less you will waste on what you don't want to involve yourself in. It's a struggle because the more you know the less people you will find like you. The picking gets narrower, and the more adversity you will have all around you as you are trying to reach your goals. The part of you that is scared also holds you back, and the fight gets tougher. The stakes are higher, the drop to the bottom is so much greater than before. There's more we perceive that we will lose if we fail. It makes life feel more real though, and no longer is the battle not worth the fight.