On Following Your Dreams
I had a dream last night that I was teaching preschool, and the other teachers where being emotionally abusive to the kids, so they were misbehaving of course. I stepped in and showed them the way to do it- by being nice to a little girl playing cards when the class was supposed to be doing something else. It made me realize that my dream job, of being a teacher and making inspired to be their best versions, was actually possible!! Months ago, I never thought so, because of my confidence level and being stopped by everyone who wanted to crush my spirit. They made me feel inadequate, but really it was started from my own viewpoint, because we are living in a HOLOGRAM.
When we open up our minds to our feelings, and sadnesses, there is so much moore room to see the world in. The sad moments and negativity are no longer shameful, they are learning experience.
I used to adore singing. but evreytime i wanted to make something of it, I knocked myself down, not even by choice. But because I thought I was not enough, not as good as any famous singers. Truthfully, we are all equally human.
It's time to vanquish the dragon. The ugly side of us that tells us we suck, and are not good enough as everyone else.
Infinite Waters, AKA Ralph, Smart, an accomplished Youtuber who inspires millions, says of emotionally strong people that they do things according to their own drum beat, because they know that following the crown is not the way to happiness.
In Betty Jean Lifton's Lost and Found the Adoption Experience, She writes that adoptees who dive deeper into their feelings have a much wider world view, and the ones who don't, sadly constrict their life to a very narrow view point. Pg. 53, "When you stifle a Curiosity about yourself, you stifle many other things as well. You shrink your area of perception. You live in a smaller place." I find that to having been true in my life, where hiding the facts destroyed my interest in exploring other areas of my personality and prevented me from loving myself in all my glory. There was always a part of me that knew that so much had to be hidden, and that if anyone even saw the tip of the iceberg I would drown in all my sorrows. Now I have a big, "This is me, damn you if you don't like it!" attitude and I've never felt better. I feel healthier and more conscious about making my own decisions, I no longer shy away from walking away from people who don't resonate with my will.
Abby Miller, an angel of Worldwide Self Hypnosis on Youtube, says in her video Old Souls, Lucifer, and Lemuria that if one doesn't love themselves truly through all the hard times, unconditionally, then it is not an authentic love, it is just synthetic. I find this to be true, and I struggle every day with seeing my good through all my down times.
As I watch my daughter triggering all of my anger and frustrations of never having my own needs met, I stand back and say, do I want her to grow up like me, ashamed for my needs? No. So I hug her and try to reach her innermost feelings with love and UNDERSTANDING. And I've never loved a person more. Seen all their quirks and laughed so much.
Love,
An Adoptee heart
When we open up our minds to our feelings, and sadnesses, there is so much moore room to see the world in. The sad moments and negativity are no longer shameful, they are learning experience.
I used to adore singing. but evreytime i wanted to make something of it, I knocked myself down, not even by choice. But because I thought I was not enough, not as good as any famous singers. Truthfully, we are all equally human.
It's time to vanquish the dragon. The ugly side of us that tells us we suck, and are not good enough as everyone else.
Infinite Waters, AKA Ralph, Smart, an accomplished Youtuber who inspires millions, says of emotionally strong people that they do things according to their own drum beat, because they know that following the crown is not the way to happiness.
In Betty Jean Lifton's Lost and Found the Adoption Experience, She writes that adoptees who dive deeper into their feelings have a much wider world view, and the ones who don't, sadly constrict their life to a very narrow view point. Pg. 53, "When you stifle a Curiosity about yourself, you stifle many other things as well. You shrink your area of perception. You live in a smaller place." I find that to having been true in my life, where hiding the facts destroyed my interest in exploring other areas of my personality and prevented me from loving myself in all my glory. There was always a part of me that knew that so much had to be hidden, and that if anyone even saw the tip of the iceberg I would drown in all my sorrows. Now I have a big, "This is me, damn you if you don't like it!" attitude and I've never felt better. I feel healthier and more conscious about making my own decisions, I no longer shy away from walking away from people who don't resonate with my will.
Abby Miller, an angel of Worldwide Self Hypnosis on Youtube, says in her video Old Souls, Lucifer, and Lemuria that if one doesn't love themselves truly through all the hard times, unconditionally, then it is not an authentic love, it is just synthetic. I find this to be true, and I struggle every day with seeing my good through all my down times.
As I watch my daughter triggering all of my anger and frustrations of never having my own needs met, I stand back and say, do I want her to grow up like me, ashamed for my needs? No. So I hug her and try to reach her innermost feelings with love and UNDERSTANDING. And I've never loved a person more. Seen all their quirks and laughed so much.
Love,
An Adoptee heart
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