Feeling Lower Than Everyone Else, & Separation From Others comes From Feeling Powerless

I am slowly beginning to see that I am not nothing. Maybe, just maybe, my actions count. everything I do has value. This is my biggest downfall, not believing I have importance. But why, it is so not fair, that everyone else I see seems to be glorious and powerful, like they show up in reality, and have importance. Why do I feel so small? I get angry about this, and want to give up. But then I see my daughter needs me, and anger at my life situation boils up, and I shout out inside, I won't do it, I won't be there for her, because I am nothing. I don't deserve to be alive, so why should I do my job? It is the same old, familiar, bursting feelings. It causes me to run from everyone, put up walls, and feel too different to participate in their shenanigans. It gives me "right" to mock them, to feel superior. But it kills me when I realize it is all ego, and get's me nowhere, and I am even as fallible and human as them. Even though I may not participate in their particular idea of enjoyment in their lives. I have my own way of distracting from my mission, my own way of running from the truth. I am just as bad, and worst, then them sometimes. In my hatred of them, I burn all possibilities of love and peace. So I need to work on seeing humanity as connected with me, so I can come back down to earth and feel any sense of good.