My daughter is an Introvert

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          My daughter is an introvert, and this means she can entertain herself. She spends hours with the same tissue box, crumbling it and then laughing as she watches it fall, and then tries to eat it. She is happy by herself, only looks to me for involvement in her play sometimes. I am grateful for her personality because I think it makes her happy with herself, and have desire to explore on her own. She is similar to me in that aspect, and I am happiest when we are both doing our own thing and looking up from time to time to share a laugh or happiness at what we discovered.

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