Finding Myself A Bit After A Good Move

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            What happened. I was just thinking about how will I ever know that I am enough, and feel good about myself that my actions count. I was feeling low and worthless. I decided to do the right thing and not indulge in guilty pleasure of watching mindless movies. I then spoke to a woman who may be able to help my daughter and I with her birth trauma effects, and was surprised when she responded compassionately to me. As I am not used to people understanding when I talked about my adoption trauma, and I needed to be sure she was aware of adoption being a factor of trauma. Suddenly, after my daughter woke up, I saw her coming towards me and I knew that I mattered. It made my eyes tear up. I just cried and cried and felt good about myself. She was happy too, if not a little confused as she came and sat on my lap.

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