Fear In G-d is the Bases of Life

I liked what Rabbi Mizrachi said, you must fear G-d because there is no such thing as love without fear. Because if you didn't fear G-d, you would not check yourself that you are behaving right. And when people don't check themselves, they think they are okay and good, and then what do they have to live for? They will end up being in fear anyway, from people, the IRS, or the like. On the other hand, if a person fears G-d they will have nothing else to fear- because they know that the only thing that matters is what He thinks of them. And that there is divine reward and retribution for everything he did after he dies.

I love this so much because it is true- it is impossible to love everyone and not have discernment for who is a moral person or not. We must have fear and understand that some people are actually doing things against G-d. Things that go against the way that He created the world to be like. I was just thinking about this today- that if nobody was serious about family and settling down, having intimacy and not cheating, the world would cease to exist. There needs to be some moral code. And if people have trouble following, they should not get free paces to flaunt their immorality.

He said the sickness of our society is that nobody wants to hear that they are not perfect. They don't want to be told that G-d punishes them for the sins that they do. They want to push the agenda that "everyone is loved by G-d no matter what," and stop people from thinking too much about changing. It prevents growth and fear of Heaven. It always drove me nuts when my family would get angry at this Rabbi because he was too "extreme" and hurtful. He is just saying the truth, and since they were not wanting to follow it, they could not stand hearing it. They think it is extremist to live your life with conviction to be good. I don't know why I'm different, but this is the way I am. I was always like this.

No way am I perfect, I am no saint. I just like questioning things and trying to find a way to feel happy and confident in my decisions. And every day I mess up. But at least I am aware of it and can track my mood. I feel that watching your actions and knowing that you are responsible for yourself makes you a more pleasant and easy to communicate with person to be around. Because you are not harping on how other people are bothering you and are rather focused on how YOU can change the situation- and you are free to move away from toxic people as you wish!! Confidence in yourself gives you the knowledge that what you feel and want matters and is achievable!!

What a crazy world. And the thing is- when I say believing in G-d, it does not mean that I literally see Him every day and do everything for Him. That is a high level that I'd like to achieve. But I am not there. Rabbi Mizrachi said that you must look for G-d's hand in your day at least once every day, and if you do not you are not doing things right no matter how religious you claim to be. I have always wondered about this- do people actually know that what they have each day is from G-d? And do they know that every thing that happens in actually orchestrated from above? Because I often do not see people who are religious acting like it. They curse others and do not seem to have respect. It bothers me greatly. I also do those things sometimes, but I regret it and want to change. I do not feel stuck in it, like they seem to be. I am stuck in other things. But I know and can admit daily that I have a lot of great things going for me that I appreciate and I thank G-d almighty for it daily. I need to do it more.

I was also thinking about abundance being connected to how much gratitude one has. Many say it, including Teal Swan and Ralph Smart. I also heard in on the YouTuber Brightside channel on mindsets of people who have a lot of money to learn from. Lol guess I need some. The Rabbis also say it constantly. If one does not appreciate what he has, he will lose it. They say people who are rich tend to spend on themselves when they need, because they trust there is enough. It all ties together. If one believes he is worthy of G-d's help and love, and has recognition of G-d in his life, meaning he is positive and feels like things have a purpose, he will get what he needs. I notice that when I feel a most lack and desperation for something, such as my daughter to go to sleep, it is because I don't believe it will happen or that I deserve it. And so it manifests on the outside and I experience lack of abundance.

Am happy that I spent so much time alone lately, the past two years or so. Because it helped me focus on myself and not rely on others, and helped me become responsible for my feelings. And not need to rely on anyone. That is the main purpose of life anyway- to learn that you cannot trust anyone or anything but G-d. And I learned that I had to follow what was the most important thing to me in life- and that was to become my most authentic self and learn what I am here for. I am no way done, but I do love my newfound independence. It helps me not fall for others or need them too much that I am blind to their true character. I get to pick whom I can trust now, and do not exploit myself. Am I rambling. The point is, having trust and self assurance leads to abundance because one believes in his worth.

This is my journey, and I am happy to share it with you that I trust in my ability to stand proud of who I am. I am not scared of admitting I do wrong. Till next time.